You did this to me

Well high school, congrats, you royally sucked
you were a lot of late nights
a lot of time spent in a plastic chair
a lot of stress over a dumb letter that decides how well I learned stuff
a lot of time spent writing and reading things that don't really matter much
you also were a lot of fun
you gave me a lot of great people
you showed me how to be social
how to use the quadratic equation
you gave me friday nights at the football stadium
you gave me my very best friends, and I thank you for that
unfortunately you also turned me into into something I'm not.
Something I was never meant to be,
something I wish I never became
you made me care too much about where I sat at lunch,
you made me care too much about what I did on the weekends,
about who I was friends with,
about who I wasn't friends with,
about what I wore,
about who I liked, and who I didn't
You made me care too much about becoming something everyone else would like.
Becoming something that I know I can be so much more than.
You made me base way too much of my self esteem on followers, likes, comments, and fake friends,
and for that I say, cuss you.
you gave a little and took a lot,
but you are insignificant now,
and I get to live the rest of my life without you now,
so thanks for everything, you taught me a lot
I hope I never see you again.
And I'm not exactly sure what happens next, but the world is ours now,
It's what we make of it.
Deuces.

Remember when

I remember when my parents told me we were moving, my dad was wearing his red sweats with no shirt on his swivel chair. I had never cried so hard.

I remember taking 95 hamburgers to homeless people and the genuine smiles they gave. I remember the disappointment in the hundreds of others that didn't get any.

I remember the best summer of my life. Only because of how carefree it was, we didn't actually do anything that great even.

I remember the long summer days in Texas, my best friend was my mom and we hung out every friday night together.

I remember going to Ridley's every friday night 8th grade to get all the doughnuts we could fit in a box and playing video games the rest of the night. Far before girls mattered.

I remember spending every weekend with my old best friend. I remember the marie callenders chicken pot pies that took 44 minutes to cook at 425 and burned my tongue every time.

I remember the hispanic guy that tried to kidnap me in the harts parking lot. I remember hearing them trying to keep some other less fortunate kid in the car when one guy got out. I'm lucky.

I remember waking up with all my little brothers jumping on me every christmas morning. We always sleep in my room.

I remember when my uncle Jake died. To this day I have never cried harder than the day I found out. It was a cold morning, February 23, 2010

I remember my first sneak out. The adrenaline was pumping through every vein in my body, it was a cold night in december.

I remember my last sneak out. My mom was there standing in the snow waiting for me. That was arguably the worst feeling in the world.

I remember thinking that I would never make it to graduation; yet here I am, just begging time to slow down so I can savor the last time I have here, and I know it sounds crazy, but yes, I will miss high school.

Addition

Addition
one of the first things we learn to do in school
arguably one of the most important
but I don't mean math
I'm talking about adding to the greater good,
the school,
the community,
peoples lives,
society as a whole.
Addition when used correctly can change lives for the better.
Unfortunately one of the first things we also learn is subtraction,
take what you can from this,
take your time
take that smile off your face this is serious,
we take things for granted
take my heart and do what you will with it

sadly most of us become to focused on subtraction rather than addition,
when we have all been taught that true happiness comes from addition,
and few of us seem to learn,
but for the few that do, they know how marvelous addition can be
so in life try to do a little more addition than subtraction next time.
You never know what could happen.
Heck, you might even end up changing someone life,
just try and make it for the better.