I am the oldest of 7 kids. I have been living my whole life with someone younger than me looking up to me, which isn't that scary, until you realize how big of an impact you have on them. Then it's terrifying. I am expected to be someone they can always look to for a good example. I am expected to always be watching out for them.
To turn off the radio when a bad song comes on.
To take care of mom when dad goes out of town.
To follow all the rules given to me.
To make honor roll.
To graduate and then go live on my own for two years without giving it a second thought.
To be confident but humble.
To be an achiever.
To be reliable.
To be academically driven but family oriented.
To get up at 6 a.m. to shovel the driveway any time it snows.
To be strong willed and determined but flexible and open minded.
And did I mention my greatest fear is disappointing those who expect these things of me? How am I supposed to do all this when I'm trying to figure out who I am and who I want to become? But if I'm being honest, I wouldn't change it if I could. The satisfaction of fulfilling those expectations is well worth the stress. Don't get me wrong, I'm not able to do all of these things, I haven't been on the honor roll since 7th grade, I listen to songs I probably shouldn't, often times I end up driving on the snow I should have shoveled. I care way to much about likes, comments, retweets, snapchats, and anything else related it. I don't want to make it seem like my life is all that bad because it really isn't, but would you even be interested in this if it wasn't?
